I have struggled in the past week for finals and school to be over and all of a sudden I've lost so much weight again because I've had a loss of appetite from stressing over planning for our wedding when I didn't need to. I never have thought I would have a tough time being so overwhelmed with just 3 classes but I've poured my poor, tiny, little heart to my Fiance because I thought I was gonna die thinking about and stressing over what doesn't need to be worried about. So my soon to be mom-in-law sat us down this past Sunday and asked us all these questions about what else needs to be done... Long Story short, she helped me take a few burdens off my shoulders and I couldn't be more grateful of her acts of kindness and what the family has done for me. What I didn't know was that we're close to being finished with our wedding stuff. We just need to reserve our cake and cupcakes, alter my temple dress, wait patiently for a call from my alterations lady (that woman is crazy busy because she works for David's Bridal but she does a phenomenal job altering wedding and prom dresses), buy candy for our reception, purchase some G's, get our invitations picked out and bought, wrap up with decorations for the event, and set appointments for the temple and hair and makeup for the day of the wedding... And A Bridal shower that I don't know when will happen or if it will happen...
But as for now...
I LOVE SUMMER BREAK! One month of reading some books that I've bought at Deseret Bookstore and never read and watching my favorite inspirational movies.
God loves us and, loving us, has placed us here to cope with challenges which he will place before us. I'm not sure we can always understand the implications of his love, because his love will call us at times to do things we may wonder about, and we may be confronted with circumstances we would rather not face. I believe with all my heart that because God loves us there are some particularized challenges that he will deliver to each of us. He will customize the curriculum for each of us in order to teach us the things we most need to know. He will set before us in life what we need, not always what we like. And this will require us to accept with all our hearts the truth that there is divine design in each of our lives and that you have the rendezvous to keep, individually and collectively. God has been extremely generous, kind, and loving to me. I face trials almost each day of my life. I have a great family and a family ahead of me who knows I've done so much and gone through so much in my life that I know any more obstacles that come my way, Heavenly Father will bless me and open his doors to a grander plan.
What I've been up to since the engagement... Planning.. Planning.. Planning!! Chris and I have been so busy and have been richly blessed with the help we've been receiving with our wedding plans. Our wedding will be as simple as it is. Several couples would spend thousands of dollars on their wedding and I'm a simple girl. I told him that the only important part of our wedding is the 90minutes spent in the Sealing Room of the Draper, UT Temple. We have enough bills to worry about and I'm not wanting us to be extremely broke after we get married. That's the only thing that makes me happy at this point of my life. Knowing that I will be sealed to him for time and all eternity and to build our future family with such a foundation well rounded on the True church just warms my heart. I've had quite a handful of ambitions growing up but nothing compares to the ETERNAL BLESSINGS of the Temple. We are 3 months (92 days) away, as of tomorrow, from our Special day. And there's nothing more I look forward to than that. Every we tease each other, his mom would always say, "At this point in your lives you two are inseparable and that's a beautiful thing." So good news! WE HAVE NOT SPENT A THOUSAND DOLLARS YET!! WHY?!? Because we're smart! We have enough bills to worry about and we will be a smart couple and responsible adults so that when time comes we will be prepared for the storm that strikes our way :)
Time is precious to me and ever since I've moved to Utah, I have not taken any time for granted. I've always believed that life is not just meant to spend time existing, but to spend it living. Dreams are the very sustenance of life. And as dreams are achieved, life's purpose is achieved, and life is truly lived. Therein, I am confident any one of us can find peace, strength, and hope for a better tomorrow beginning by living today.
Today, I want to express my love for my family, my friends, the family that I am marrying in to, the niece and nephew I will have, and my wonderful Fiance, Chris. When I speak of hope for a bright future, he is my knight and shinning armor, bringing such warmth and comfort that moves through me. We've built that bond, a friendship that defies this world. I pray daily that I may live worthy of his love and give him the respect he deserves, no matter what comes our way. I am grateful for the family I was blessed to be born in to because the struggles and trials that has come my way and accepted to learn from, I would not have overcome if it wasn't for them. I love my family dearly.
Jeffrey R. Holland has said, "The first element of divine love--pure love... it is kindness, its selfless quality, its lack of ego and vanity and consuming self-centeredness. 'Charity suffereth long, and is kind, [charity] envieth not, and is not puffed up, seeketh not her own' (Moroni 7:45)" My fiance has all these qualities.
I am confident about our future together because of the plan that our loving Heavenly Father has set for the both of us. We both know it won't be easy but "Happily Ever After" will only happen if we work hard and work together towards a successful marriage. I am overwhelmed with gratitude and humility for the blessings we've already received as we're dating. And I know in my heart that the most important part of the Lord's work we will ever do together will be within the walls of our home.
It comforts me also that the last apartment I live in is safe. It's kind of funny that I live right behind the biggest hospital in the valley because as Chris would say, "Look, if you ever have to go to the E.R. again, you can just run there..." I've always thought about knocking at the Police Station office and ask them to drive me to the hospital in case of an emergency. LOL! But I'm healthy as stated by my Doctor. The Post office is also right next door to my apartment/home. God loves me because this apartment is wrapped around in such love that I could almost feel Heavenly Father would sit in our living room comfortably because I have such great roommates who have wrote scriptures, quoted prophets, songs, and many others on a sticky note, an index card, or a printer paper and have stuck them every where on our walls. Even in my room, I have quotes I have bought from Deseret Bookstore that I have stuck on my wall. I am simply happy and content with my life. God lives and the Church is true!
This month will be filled with a few appointments for our wedding, including invitations, wedding dress touchups, and temple dress alterations. My family is also coming here at the end of the month to visit and meet Chris's family before the wedding happens in August.
I hope to update everyone more often this summer on our wedding planning on this blog!
I find strength in prayer, attending Church to be with others who also love God, reading inspiring books such as the Book of Mormon, the Bible, and books written by Church leaders and inspiring Church members, and lastly listening intently to music. The right type of music always opens a conduit to heaven for me.
Love Always,
Trish
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